Ever feel like this? Have you ever felt like a failure as a MOTHER? The feeling of not doing all you think you should be doing. I have been feeling like this for a while now. Feeling that I should be doing more, giving more to them, instructing them more. Feeling like I was letting teachable moments pass me by. Not giving my all as a mother. And at first I was blind to it all (well lets be honest) I chose to turn a blind eye to all. But God in all his wisdom, mercy, grace, and because he loves me, and my three girls so much, he so delicately brought it to my attention.
Being completely transparent can be scary. But for the advancement of his kingdom and to bring him honor I believe we must be willing to accept any scary or embarrassing feelings that we may be feeling for much more Christ gave for us on the Cross.
So here's a quick view on my past; Girl meets boy at age 15 falls for boy. Boy moved away to California and contact between boy and girl ceases. Few years past and boy moved back to Oregon and meets girl again. Girl falls for boy again. Led by emotions and misguided preconceptions girl is now pregnant with boys child out of wedlock at age 20. Boy marries girl out of obligation and responsibility. (this is true) So Moving day is coming soon! I'm so excited to get out of this apartment and be in our own space! Finally, Yes!! The Lord is good. Everything is basically packed and ready to go, we have a few things that are still left out. You know, all those odds and ends you have no clue how to pack. Simply because its just a bunch of random stuff that you can't really label under anything specific. :-/ The house is a mess, my kids are going insane with nothing to do, because bight mom over here decided to pack all of their stuff already as well. (2 weeks ago! I know what was I thinking right?) Oh well whats done is done. I'm just excited to move!
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AuthorRenewed by God's grace. Wife and best friend of Guillermo, loving mommy of twin girls THING 1 & THING 2 and of my Lil' Squirt. Humble servant of Christ. ArchivesCategories |